27 March 2007

Exhaustion

"Oh, that I had the wings of a dove! I would fly away and be at rest" (Psalm 55:6)

I have slept 7 hours cumulative in the past 4 days. I'm exhausted. I feel like someone is playing some cruel trick on me. Every time I lay my "snugglebug" down in his crib or bassinet and then get into bed myself, the moment my head hits the pillow, he's up. Literally, every time. If I hold him, no problem. If I'm out of the house, no problem. If I'm up doing something, no problem. But let me attempt to sleep, forget it. And yes, I am to the point of wanting to smother my husband with the pillow as he sleeps (because he has to go to work at 6am). Instead I spent the night calling him names I'm glad my son is too young to understand.

5 comments:

Kassi said...

ah yes, post partum angst. I totally remember that...*shudder*. All I can say is that you can lock yourself in your bedroom and leave snugglebug with daddy for a bit. You need the rest. Baby will be okay. Love to you!

Susan said...

Yep...I agree...take some time for you if possible. It's so hard...I know when I had #4 I had to play mind games with myself at times...telling myself this WAS just a drop in the bucket of time. It would be "over" and I'd wonder where it went...and it's true. Sometimes I do think about it. Hang in there.

:-) Susan

Fin said...

ah yes, i remember that well. i'm still glad that foo has no memory of those months and mushroom was asleep and couldn't hear.

of course you probably don't want to go the route that I eventually did (co-sleeping) because i still do (co-sleep) and there are nights when our little somnacrobat gives one of the other of us a hard enough kick to keep us awake for the rest of the night!

best of luck!

Kassi said...

I always warn about co-sleeping..they never believe me!

Buffalo Buffy said...

We kept our babies in our bed for a number of weeks. I know people say that is a no no but it worked well for us. And they are all out of our bed now, btw. :-)