27 November 2008

Turkey Day

Go ahead...gorge yourself on turkey, cranberries & stuffing! Or perhaps you're one of those people who, for some odd reason prefer to have things like ham & green beans? No matter what you choose to indulge yourself with today, have a great Thanksgiving!

There is alot to be thankful for...health, friends, family. Faith for the future. And I am thankful...for you!

(I hope I'm not the only one who appreciates the sheer terror of this photo, either.)

21 November 2008

Baby Sings the Blues

I've just been blue lately.
I don't know if it's post-partum guk, or if its just life.
At Darcy's 4 month check up they made me fill out a questioniere asking questions like "Have you felt stressed, anxious, or nervous in the past 2 weeks?" Uh...yeah. But Christmas (and Kaitlyn's birthday) are coming next month and I have no gifts yet and money is tight, and....
or "Do you not look forward to things you used to look forward to?" Uh...yeah. But again, money is always an issue & my own extended family are schmucks, and some of my friends are really miss are far away, and have all sorts of things I want to do but can't afford to do and don't have the time to do even if I had the money. "Do you feel bad about yourself or blame yourself for things?" Uh...yeah. I have all sorts of extra weight I'm hating to the point I can't stand to even look at myself in the mirror, and yet my self control seems non-existant. I hate all the clothes I do have but can't afford to buy myself anything new so I'll at least feel cute. Oh, and money again...I feel like its my fault I can't give everyone all the things I WANT to give them. Or take a trip to visit my mom. Or...

You get the idea.

So am I suffering post-partum depression? I don't know. I do know I feel in a constant state of frustration, have zero energy for anything, and everyone pisses me off on a regular basis.

Happy freakin' Holidays. guh.