Who Do I Want to be When I Grow Up?

So I've been unemployed since June.
It sucks.
No one will hire me.
Hell, no one will interview me!
I feel like a failure...and something has to change.
SO...
I've been reassessing what I want for the rest of my life.
My family & time with them.
Offering my kids everything I possibly can for them.
Travelling the world. (Preferably with my family.)
Writing again.
And if I can make money doing all of these things, I'll be happy!
SO...
I'm looking into taking a International Tour Manager Certification program.
Fingers crossed.
Wish me luck!

Ridin' the Highs & the Lows

Yesterday was nothing but a serious emotional roller coaster. What began as a typical day of dropping baby boy off to the grandparents & heading to the museum spiralled into something else entirely. On my way to get him in the afternoon I was taking a route different from what I typically take, because I wanted to stop & get some elastic to finish a cute pair of PJ bottoms I had made for myself to lounge around in. (They are pink with figure skates on them, if you care.)

So, all of a sudden I stop at a light, and the police car behind me flips on his lights. Instantly all I can think is "Oh shit..." He says, "You've done nothing wrong, I just wanted you to know you're brake light is out." "Oh, ok, thanks, I'll get it fixed right away, there's an auto parts store at the next corner, I can see it from here. I just need to pick up my son up the road." No, that wasn't enough, he had to see my license to verify that the car I was driving was my own. Can you not see the baby seat behind me & my crap in the car? *sigh* I grab my coat to pull out my little wallet I keep my things in since there is no place at the museum to safely put a purse. It's not there! What? I frantically start looking for it...nothing. I explain the situation to him. He proceeds to say "I can't let you go unless you can prove you're you. Is there anyone you can call?" uh...I don't know WHERE my license is, so how the hell is someone else supposed to know? He keeps asking me things like whether or not I know my driver's license number by heart? Uh...no, why would I? Would someone else have it? Well, since I don't have it smart guy, anything is possible. Long story short, I am forced to leave the car on the side of the road (2 blocks, literally, from my in-laws house I must point out) and go to the police station.

Two hours later I've had to call my in-laws to pick up my car & then come pick me up, but not after I've been finger printed & photographed! Can you believe it?! Yes, being pregnant & hormonal I cried. Alot.

My in-laws were surprisingly nice about everything, brought dinner down for the family & quickly drove me home since I HAD to be home by 6pm to go with my cool neighbour to a meeting & job interview.

She & her family are, sadly, moving to NE next month leaving her position open. It seems like a really cool job working for the Parks & Rec. I applied & they were interested. Long story short, they offered me the position last night!!I am the new Director for the Caledonia Parks & Rec commission! I'm terribly excited about it & everyone seems very, very nice. Wish me luck!

So my "normal" day went from the lowest of lows to a fabulous high! Emotional rollercoasters are not nearly as fun as Cedar Point, let me tell you.

Someone sent this to me via one of those email forwards, which I must admit that when I see those things, particularly from certain friends who seems to want to forward every one that comes their way involving "...and Angels will watch over you...", blah, blah blah. Yeah, yeah, whatever. But this one I took the time to read and thought "Hmm, some sound advice there actually." So, here ya go (with a few of my own comments thrown in for good measure).

WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...enough money within her control to move outand rent a place of her own,even if she never wants to or needs to (so true, as I was stuck witout this during my divorce)...A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...something perfect to wear if the employer,or date of her dreams wants to see her in an hour...A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..a youth she's content to leave behind(I'm glad to say I did alot & don't feel like I need to recapture my youth. However, I'm far from old & like to believe that I'm only at a wiser stage of youthfulness)....A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...a past juicy enough that she's looking forward toretelling it in her old age(This is where I have to say that I'm hoping to still make it juicy)....A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .....a set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill, and a black lace bra (and know how to properly use them all!)...A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ....one friend who always makes her laugh.. and one who lets her cry (I'm fortunately enough to have that in one best friend)...A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ....a good piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in her family (true, but there is also something to be said for antique furniture too)...A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...eight matching plates, wine glasses with stems,and a recipe for a meal,that will make her guests feel honored(yes, but you need to use them all on a semi-regular basis. Why wait for guests to use the good china & crystal?)...A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...a feeling of control over her destiny...EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...how to fall in love without losing herself...EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...how to quit a job,break up with a lover,and confront a friend without ruining the friendship (Amen! And know how to bounce back when they happen to her)...EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...when to try harder... and WHEN TO WALK AWAY...EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...that she can't change the length of her calves,the width of her hips, or the nature of her parents(sigh)...EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...that her childhood may not have been perfect, but it's over...EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...what she would and wouldn't do for love or more...EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...how to live alone, even if she doesn't like it...EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW.. .whom she can trust,whom she can't,and why she shouldn't take it personally...EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...where to go...be it to her best friend's kitchen table...or a charming inn in the woods...when her soul needs soothing(this is sometimes the hardest things to realize)...EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...what she can and can't accomplish in a day...a month...and a year.(Here's to accomplishing something great every day!)