14 August 2011

Who am I?

I don't write anymore, as you can see.
I don't do faire anymore.
I don't hang out with a bunch of friends anymore.
I don't look cute & sassy anymore.
I've lost ME.
I know I should be happy, I have a family who are healthy & fairly happy.
But I'm not.
I feel like I'm a stranger who takes care of them day after day.  I don't know ME anymore.
I feel fat & ugly & old.
I feel unclever & unwitty & certainly unwise.
I had spark.  Lived by it.
And it gone and I don't know how to get it back.
I just know I'm perpetually sad.
And lonely.
I wish I could help ME.
Please come back.

1 comment:

Kanga said...

{{{{hugs}}}} I only just saw this. And I felt like I could have written it!

I will be praying for you and for me.

I love you!