I don't write anymore, as you can see.
I don't do faire anymore.
I don't hang out with a bunch of friends anymore.
I don't look cute & sassy anymore.
I've lost ME.
I know I should be happy, I have a family who are healthy & fairly happy.
But I'm not.
I feel like I'm a stranger who takes care of them day after day. I don't know ME anymore.
I feel fat & ugly & old.
I feel unclever & unwitty & certainly unwise.
I had spark. Lived by it.
And it gone and I don't know how to get it back.
I just know I'm perpetually sad.
And lonely.
I wish I could help ME.
Please come back.
