30 June 2011

Is Freedom Ringing?

Once again we approach the 4th of July weekend.  Once again I will have friends over for a cookout. But anyone who reads this knows, I am NOT much of a patriot, pure & simple. (Given my choice, I'd be living back in England.) I respect this country. I respect our president. I certainly respect the military who make the choice to put their lives in danger.  But, I have no respect for many of the current governors who don't value education or the careers of people in the state they are supposed to be representing.  I also believe that the majority of Americans are self-centered & insular.  (Not saying I think any other mass of peoples in the world don't have their faults, I'm only speaking of the country in which I reside.) Anyway...in preparation of the 4th, I'm doing a "rerun" of a post I wrote this time in 2006.


Thanks to the Rest o'the WorldToday Americans celebrate the 4th of July...America's Independence Day. I know there are going to be blogs everywhere extoling the virtues of the United States, so I wanted to do something a little bit different. I want to recognize that many of the symbols we associate with our "freedom", actually come via other countries. Or the facts we know may be just a little bit squewed. I'm not trying to incite a riot or upset any patriots...I just want to look at things from a slightly different point of view.

First, let's begin with the day itself. Why do we celebrate today? I think most people will answer "Because its the day the Declaration of Independence was signed!" Wrong! It was the day it was adopted by the 2nd Congress. It was read on the 9th, when it was approved by the 13 colonies, officially created on the 19th, but it didn't actually get signed until August 2nd!

Betsy Ross created the original American flag, right? Wrong! The flag that was created to represent the new country was created before the Revolutionary War by Rebecca Young. It was the flag General Washington raised on New Year's Day 1776. It was also our official flag on July 4, 1776. Now, did Betsy Ross actually make our flag? Well, she was a flagmaker, and made flags for almost 50 years, which is where her notoriety comes from. The "Stars & Stripes" flag (originally with 13 stripes & 13 stars) however, was created by Mary Pickersgill in 1813. It was the flag that was flying over Fort McHenry during the War of 1812 that was seen "by the dawn's early light" by Francis Scott Key.

Speaking of Mr. Key, the author of our American anthem, "The Star Spangled Banner", he was witness to the 25 hour retaliation attack of the British against the Americans at the fort during the War of 1812. Indeed, the in morning when the British ceased fire, the flag was still flying. He felt inspired and wrote the poem "The Battle of Fort McHenry". It was soon published in many places, and someone came up with the idea to sing it. However, the music ironically, is a popular English drinking song "To Anacreon in Heaven". It wasn't officially made our national anthem until 1931.

That same night's non-stop cannon & gunfire by the Brits is also the reason we celebrate with fireworks.

And let's not forgot that the quintessential figure of freedom, the Statue of Liberty, was a gift from the French in October 1886.

So today let's not be so ego-centric as to believe that we wouldn't have our freedoms of liberty, or the symbols of that, without the rest of the world.

15 May 2011

Toddler Tantrum

Right now we are firmly entrenched in the horror that is the Terrible Twos.
Now, I haven't a clue of why they refer to it as that, as it always seems to surface just before the age of three.  All I DO know is that I'm at the end of my rope with this adorable, precious, highly verbal, overly obstinate, pushing me to the edge toddler.
It's been a battle all week, fighting constantly with me, her brother, herself.  Miss Independent doesn't even cover it.  Add to it the 4 year old suddenly can't communicat ewithout whining or being afraid of EVERYTHING (his bed, the potty, his sister, the outside, the inside, his shoes, dinner, a boo)k...everything is seems EXCEPT ghosts! (He has this odd interesting in Ghost Hunters TV show, which he says he loves & is NOT scary.)
I'm just praying the Teen years are a piece of cake.
Yeah, I can dream.

28 April 2011

Royal Wedding 2011


Friday, 29 April 2011, Prince William & Kate Middleton will be married in London.
I'd be lying if I said I didn't want to be there.  Alas, I am not nobility or a political leader, and thus I will be relegated to watching on TV like millions of others.  But, of course I'll do it in style!

I have 5 lovely ladies who will be coming over this evening to spend the night.  We will get up to start watching on the BBC at 3am, wear fabulous hats (with our jammies, of course!), and have a full British breakfast.  It's going to be girly, and giggly, and fun!

Happiest of futures to the lovely couple!

21 March 2011

Losing My Way

Yes, I haven't written, yet again. I've lost my voice. I've lost my job. I feel my life is in a rut...and yet I'm touring! Should I start a new blog about travel? I only have tours until June, so I'm nervous of what will happen after that. I need direction. Anyone??

04 January 2011

A New Year

I've been highly remiss about writing, but life has been busy & hectic & quite frankly, I just haven't felt like writing anything. I will attempt to get back to it. To try to make it a part of my week again. I need to...for me. For my own memories.

So. Thanksgiving & Christmas have come & gone. Both were delightful, actually. Kaitlyn came home for Thanksgiving, which was a whirlwind weekend spent sewing her a new Steampunk costume that I'd promised her LAST year. (It's very cool!) She left, and then I had Tabitha's bachelorette party, wedding (wonderful!), and Kaitlyn was back again! She & I went to Las Vegas where we celebrated her 17th birthday. 17!!! When did that happen? My baby is no baby! And we had a blast!!! I will attempt to write a "review" next, but let me just say Vegas offers way more than expected! We returned the night before Christmas Eve, and the holiday was wonderful! The kids are hilarious & made me smile! The week after Christmas was slightly hectic only in that I had to work a few days & Paul had to work 2 jobs EVERY day! So by the time New Year's Eve rolled around, it was quiet. Only Jazz & Matt came over, but that was good. I made a nice dinner; Kaitlyn made 2 amazing desserts & we played some Wii games thanks to Matt.

Today Sebastian started preschool at the APL School in Franklin! My little boys was so excited! I can't believe it.

So here we are. 2011. Wow!

17 November 2010

Grey and overcast

My life is very much like the weather lately. I have little to be happy or sunshiney about. I know I should have posted a Happy 5 year anniversary post about marriage & my husband, but I neither had the time or inclination.

I'm NOT happy, especially with him right now. I'm tired. I'm bored. I'm boring. I'm lonely. And feeling like he couldn't care less about me.

He thinks by sitting on the couch & watching a show, that's romance. He thinks by paying bills he's showing me he loves me. He believes kissing is foreplay. He doesn't get it. Or me anymore.

We used to have a bubble around us, where the whole world could fall away. We could laugh & talk about anything. Now, nothing...and no effort.

I hate living in a world of cold & grey.
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04 November 2010

I'll wave a rainbow flag if I must...

This article is amazing.
http://nerdyapplebottom.com/2010/11/02/my-son-is-gay/
I've often said, my son may be gay. Or bi. Or not.
I don't care.
He's amazing & I'll love him. Always.
And he should be able to marry whomever he chooses. Male or Female.

24 October 2010

catch-22

Feeling like I'm in a hamster wheel...always running, but getting no where, and with no one.

My husband is working 2 jobs. All.the.time. and I'm perceived as the ungrateful bitch of a wife because how dare I complain that I can't ever get anything done. I mean, so what that I work and take care of the kids, cook the meals, and oh, just might need some alone time to do what? Oh, grocery shop!

Clearly I'm just an unreasonable bitch. Sorry about that. Oh, let's add in that I've had a cold for two weeks I can't get rid of, probably because I haven't had a full nights sleep in months, with even less this week than "normal". (5 hours in 3 nights.)
Oh, and that Halloween party we have every year? Yeah, you just go ahead & work...clearly I'll do everything by myself! Oh, I have to work that day too? I guess I'll be the one dealing with the babysitter issue, the cooking, the decorating, getting myself costumed with historically accurate hair & makeup, and having guests arrive in the 5 hours "free".

But I'm an ungrateful bitch who doesn't understand that he's working. Yeah.
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15 October 2010

Losing Faith

I'm angry.
I've tried to hard to be faithful...to believe in God...to trust Him.
But I'm losing my faith because horrible people continue to do horrible things, while good people suffer.
This week my mother is suffering...to a point that she may be slowly dying.
My mother is the most devout person I've ever known.
My mother put all her trust in God.
She was gifted with incredible talent as a dancer & figure skater.
Her ability to use her legs was taken away by MS.
My mother adored my father.
He was taken away unexpectedly & quickly.
My mother was raised well to do, and loves enjoying life, particularly really good foods.
Now her ability to eat is being taken away.
This is cruel.
It's not fair.
And I'm angry.
Very angry.
I want to scream at God. I want to hit Him.
I want to know why she should be forced to suffer.
I want my mom back.

14 October 2010

The Chill in the Air


Autumn.
My favourite time of the year!

I just adore the crisp, cold air that requires a jacket or sweater.
I adore the fantastic colours the world becomes...red, orange, gold, green, purple...its rich & stunning & inspiring.
I adore snuggling under a warm blanket with my husband.
I adore watching the kids jumping in the leaves.
I love the crunch of the leaves beneath my feet while taking a stroll.
I love that the bugs & humidity are gone.
I love Halloween.
I wish it could stay this sort of weather year round.
(The closest I can get to that is England...and sadly, I'm not there.) *sigh*
For now, I just try to enjoy every moment of this beautiful season!

(Photos taken by me at Petrifying Springs Park-Kenosha, WI)

06 October 2010

Gleeful through the Tears

Last night was the most powerful episode of the TV show GLEE.
Hilariously called "Grilled Cheesus" it focused on religion, faith, beliefs, fear, and doubt. It really hit home for me, and despite feeling terribly sick, I cried my way through the episode.

After my father's death 5 years ago, and my mom's struggle with MS, I've found myself doubting my faith again & again. I get angry because my mom is probably the most devout person I've ever known, and yet she suffers in pain every day. Mom never missed a Holy Day or Sunday at Church. She prays daily. She is a kind, giving person. She is unable to walk at all. She had been a professional figure skater & dancer, and this is the punishment she has been given. Why?!?!

My father was raised by faithful parents, and converted to Catholicism as an adult. He would have loved to have been a priest, and vowed to if mom had passed away first. He adored my mom and took incredible care of her. He taught me to expect a lot from a husband...and life. Then, despite being incredibly healthy & strong, in a moment he died. Fast, unexpected, and long before his time. Why?!?!

So I'm grateful to the cast of GLEE for their bravery in presenting a topic, that could be so controversial, so eloquently.

01 October 2010

Back in Time...again

It's yet another Time Travelling weekend!
This time it's back to 1574 and the Stronghold Renaissance Faire in Oregon, IL
I always love performing at this faire, as it is very low key, the site is spectacular, the weather is perfect, and I always get to play someone new. This year I'm pulling out Lady Catherine Talbot (I played her 2 years ago at Stronghold). I like her alot, and would consider asking to play her at Bristol even. There isn't alot about her that I've found so far, but my persona of her is a unique one for me. She's a chameleon. She is whatever anyone thinks she is...but she is true to herself in it. I think I'll enjoy developing her further.
Once she's married she is the Countess of Pembroke. I asked to play her unmarried, as I didn't want to upset anyone by asking to play a high ranked character. Guess what? As the daughter of an earl, I'm still the 4th highest ranking person! Oops! Didn't plan it that way, and if certain individuals get pissy about it, I guess that's their problem, not mine. I couldn't care less about rank, it's about playing an interesting character.
A couple good friends (Tab, Ansel, Heather, Brian, Rick, Misty) aren't going to be there, sadly. I wish there were. It's always fun with them.
Pictures next week!

18 September 2010

Lonely


Lately all I've been feeling is loneliness.
None of my friends call.
None of my friends include me.
None of my friends (at least the ones that live within 3 hours of me) are spontaneous or ever want to just "hang out".
I don't remember the last "girl's day" I had with a friend...that just hanging out at the mall, having lunch, shopping for nothing.

A group of people were going to the Michigan RenFest this weekend. I wasn't even a thought.
I feel like a social outcast. Me, the one who always had endless friends around. Me, the one who always had people over. Me, who is ridiculously social, has no one to be social with.

I hate being alone.
I just keep fighting the tears as I read Facebook & see life happening all around me, and I'm so not a part of it.
I hate this.

28 August 2010

I won! I won!



I've been SO busy lately, and one of my responsibilities this week was to attend a company trade show. It was fairly nice...but I won!


ME! I NEVER win! And I won TWO trips!



2 nights at Treasure Island in Las Vegas with tickets to Mystiere' (Cirque du Soliel)!!!


I'm going to take my daughter in December for her 17th birthday.




and...






3 nights at the El Dorado Royale in Riviera Maya, Mexico!


I'm going to take my husband for our 5 year anniversary.




I'm in shock.

21 July 2010

AWOL

I know, I know...I haven't written in waaaaaaay too long.
I've been busy, ok?? Geez.
Yeah, I know...no one cares but me, but there's no need for me to get sassy with myself, either!

Today I'm attending my first travel seminar for Sandals resorts. Should be interesting...I hope.
In my head they will tell us all about their amazing resorts that I can't afford to go to, feed us some amazing Caribbean food like what they offer at their resorts, and give us bags full of cool gifts. In reality, I suspect it will be far more mundane.

So what's new? I have a cool new 4G Android phone, EVO...which makes me chuckle because the name sounds like EVIL to me. It can do so much, I feel lost! But when you're stuck with the same phone for 2 years, why not be ahead of the game & go for all the bells & whistles? Heck, maybe it will even make me blog more?

05 July 2010

To the World!

So life is finally on the upswing!
I have a job!
As a travel agent!
I have at least one tour operator who wants to contract me for 2011!
I'm SO happy!
I just am itching to see the world!

Today a friend stopped into see me at work. We started chit chatting about Paul & I travelling with he & his wife to the UK next May. OH how I'd love that!
Now to contemplate squirrelling away money....

27 May 2010

GLEEful


Today I'm riding the wave! Last night I was priveldged enough to experience the GLEE LIVE concert in Chicago. Good friends of mine had a series of circumstances that left them with a spare ticket to the show, and they were kind enough to offer it to me! Believe me, I was thrilled! (And my hubby was kind enough to stay not only with our two little ones, but their toddler as well.) So after a great day hanging out, we made our way to the Rosemont Theatre where we were a part of the "special " crowd...a pre-show, tickets in the first 10 rows, gifts and we even had the chance to meet the two guys in the cast who play "Kurt" and "Finn"! (Very nice guys.) The quality of performance was excellent! They not only sounded & looked as good or better than on the show, it was wonderful to see they had real stage presence & talent, not just something that comes from good television editing. So...here are some shots from the show I took with my cell phone camera:

25 May 2010

Rollercoasters...and not the fun kind

I keep trying to stay up, but something keeps pushing me down.
Today my down is my husband.
He's really making me feel like I mean nothing to him.
That I'm a commitment that can't be broken, not something he cherishes.
I hate venting about certain things here, but it is what it is.
I'm not like some bloggers who air all their laundry for the sake of readership & a joke. I'm a journal blogger. This is my space where I choose to be public.
And today I'm upset.

24 May 2010

A Fresh Start


As you can see I've "freshened up" the blog for summer.

I'm also working on "freshening up" my life.

In April I attending the Travel Management program at the International Guide Academy in Denver, CO. What an amazing experience! Within hours I realized that not only was I among a group of truly incredible people who have the same sort of interests & passions as I do, but that Paul & I had made the best decision in the world for me to attend. At 40+ I feel like all my experiences have come together & I've finally found what I was meant to do! It was incredibly intense, but I learned so much and I simply cannot wait to get touring! I've made some great new friends, and that was the cherry on top of it all!

Here's to the World!

19 May 2010

The Lowest of Lows

Today I found out my unemployement has run out.
We're screwed.
I have NO idea what to do.
I hate this.
I hate me.